I ask that wherever you are, you continue to watch over us. We miss your presence, your captivating smile and your golden heart. I sometimes wonder what life would be like if you were here. I miss our morning runs in an attempt to stay somewhat fit, our random coffee dates at Starbucks and your constant urgency to go see the Christmas tree lighting in the New York City every year. Life was great. I miss you Rachel and I am not sure where you are but I promise I will continue to watch over Bella for you. Justice is what we all need in this family for the sake of our friendship and for your sister. I hope that one day we will all wake up from this nightmare. I need my best friend back. Rachel please send me a sign. Show me that you are near. I remember you once asked me about my fears in life and how I would overcome them. We sat in Central Park, over by the benches we marked with our signatures. I laughed because your dark denim jeans ripped seconds before sitting down on the park’s benches and the blue-eyed boy sitting across from us noticed. You shut me up after yelling “Delilah, play it cool.” I could not resist at that point. I guess this is what led up to you asking me about my fears. I did not have an answer for you at the time. I mean who would? We were only eleven. I think now looking back I’d say: losing my best friend.